Monday, April 30, 2012
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
in the second bathroom
the hum of the fan numbs the panicked rapidity of
my chemically altered heart
as the tears tear through my waterproof eyeliner
forming ridges on my fat face.
the halogen light is so penetrating
that the only place I can travel to is
the Getty
and CabInn in Aarhus
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
the Suburbs
"It’s in the suburbs that there is vitality, deception, depression, energy, utopia, autonomy, craziness, creativity, destruction, ideas, young people, hope, fights to be fought, audaciousness, disagreements, problems, and dreams. It’s in the suburbs that today’s big issues are written on the building facades. It’s in the suburbs that today’s reality can be grasped, and it’s in the suburbs that the pulse of vitality hurts" - artist Thomas Hirschhorn
Friday, April 6, 2012
Fufillment
"What's something you do everyday that makes you feel fulfilled?"
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I've been fairly depressed the last few days. I have skipped out on parties (including 90's and funk music parties, two favorites), hooking up with smart and gorgeous a cappella men from Oxford University, and class because I have been feeling so low. The inside of my mouth has been chewed until it has bled, and inside of my stomach has become a garbage pit for everything I see. I seem to be on a rampage of negativity, until a friend from high school just randomly texted me the above statement a few minutes ago. This is the problem: I do not feel fulfilled. But I can be.
Something I do everyday that makes me feel fulfilled:
I give thanks for good things in the day before I go to bed.
Things I do sometimes that make me feel fulfilled:
1. Go on a really long and hard run
2. Pause and drink really good coffee slowly
3. Make someone whose sense of humor I respect laugh
4. Dance to good music well and completely freely
5. Have someone respect my opinion (academically or socially)
I'm so glad she texted me, because I have been feeling completely unfulfilled this week. I really need to focus on what makes my days fulfilled and do more of what really makes me happy.
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I've been fairly depressed the last few days. I have skipped out on parties (including 90's and funk music parties, two favorites), hooking up with smart and gorgeous a cappella men from Oxford University, and class because I have been feeling so low. The inside of my mouth has been chewed until it has bled, and inside of my stomach has become a garbage pit for everything I see. I seem to be on a rampage of negativity, until a friend from high school just randomly texted me the above statement a few minutes ago. This is the problem: I do not feel fulfilled. But I can be.
Something I do everyday that makes me feel fulfilled:
I give thanks for good things in the day before I go to bed.
Things I do sometimes that make me feel fulfilled:
1. Go on a really long and hard run
2. Pause and drink really good coffee slowly
3. Make someone whose sense of humor I respect laugh
4. Dance to good music well and completely freely
5. Have someone respect my opinion (academically or socially)
I'm so glad she texted me, because I have been feeling completely unfulfilled this week. I really need to focus on what makes my days fulfilled and do more of what really makes me happy.
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