Thursday, February 24, 2011
Tuesday, February 1, 2011
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"that's the best revenge of all: happiness. nothing drives people crazier than seeing someone have a good fucking life." Chuck Palahniuk
Naked, Really
I look down at this body of mine
my shoulders, tan
and there is a scar on my back
I look at the back of this body
and see two inches too short
and see scars that are disformative
and see a slight curve
that is perfect for cuddling up against
and strength-fully sexy
"I would masturbate the hell out of that scar"
but I don't reveal it so I can't get too far
I look down at these legs of mine and see
too stubby
pocked by mosquito bites
that form rough bruises
that say "yes, I hiked the Canadian lakeshore
and have been bitten by unruly horses many times"
and when I put on those black slick shoes
my legs can kick right back.
and then I look at my ass
perfect for cuddling up against
a perfect handful when someone presses their mouth against mine.
and my thighs monstrously large -
I will eat salads for weeks to decrease those trunks
but they are as unshrinkable as my desire for chocolate chip cookies.
I look down at my tan and veiny feet
with a bunion that "wants to talk with its twin bone in my right foot"
with calluses on the sides from dancing five nights a week
and a scar from the time I was barefoot in the creek
and sliced my foot on a fishing hook
I hate my body that I look down at
when I am in public I feel to fat
my stomach is supple, that word that I hate
to weight 118, I'm resigned, is my fate
but sometimes
when I'm getting out of my cloths
I look at my arm muscles
and my 5'2" frame
and I run my fingers along my skin and think
"but this is beauty"
and I look down at the lines from my foot to those dimples
at the end of my back
and see how sensuously I can slide around
and I like the way every curve folds into another!
I'm trying to believe myself.
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