Feeling Emptier on My Left Side

Sigh no more, ladies

Sigh no more

Men were deceivers ever

One foot in sea

And one on shore

To one thing constant never

Then sigh not so

And let them go

And be you blithe and bonny

Converting all your sounds of woe

Into hey, nonny nonny!

Much Ado About Nothing

Bones

hipbones collarbones

hipbones collarbones

hip bones down

into my pitted middle

collar bones side

flimsy as a fiddle

fingers tracing hip bones

eyes tracing collar bones

hip bones

collar bones

connected by the spine

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Thinking A Lot About Dear Oscar Lately...

failureregret

I'm tired of this endless nostalgia

Hearing words overlay themselves to form frost

in the shape of typewriter letters over and over until they pierce out the side of my head

I'm tired of this sunlight

telling myself to move but all I can think about

are those letters in my brain

flipping themselves sideways trying to create meaning

of the past of the past trying to shake off their

baby power dust still clinging to the tips

They are slating sideways like some

drunken sledder fuzzy and blurred

I just want them to go away

and stop thinking about this second Saturday in February the second time

because I know another word just formed in my head

now two

they are overlapping and the dust is falling off of them and I can almost hold them

can you see them through my eyes? Into my head where the words are clinging to each other like some mad desperate cats?

I wish they would stop moving

I am becoming nauseous

There are too many words.

Lately

I just want to shake to the Strokes

with a side shimmy

hair flings over my other shoulder

silence

a breath

resume faster swirling to these mad guitars

Come Back To Me

I miss true biking weather

I'm In the Market for a New Hat

Snow

Rehearsal was cancelled today due to the joyous amount of snow.

So Orlee and I went to Rochambo, and then briefly shopping. I have never seen Roch so peaceful, the afternoon and the snow made the place beautifully empty. After stopping in Starbucks and a quick call to Sam, my parents picked me up and we headed to dinner, so I didn't even have to pay for return bus fare. I seriously ate my weight in pasta, at this really interesting restaurant in an old beer all.

BASICALLY today was wonderful and I LOVE MILWAUKEE!

Now I'm homework-ing and listening to History of Lovers. Iron and Wine an Calexio together!!?!? Brilliant.

Choose

Finally

In celebration of second semester today I started This Side of Paradise, French Women Don't Get Fat, Walden, Coraline, and Freakanomics. I feel like at least one of those will not be finished. But here are some beautiful pictures of books.

Laszyyzyzy

No exams today, finally.

So I'm in my bed listening to What Would I Want Sky, which is the perfect mix of joyful and relaxed. So happy. And I have a smoothie. And I just booked a facial. Life is lookin up kids.

I'm thinking second semester I will become immortal.

Books

This is the past year and a half, I'm still unsatisfied. I wish I could learn, like really learn! Which happens when I read but there is no tiiimmee. * means it was for school

Alice’s Adventures In Wonderland, Lewis Carroll

A Lifetime of Secrets: A PostSecret Book, Frank Warren

All You Need To Be Impossibly French; A Witty Investigation into the Lives, Lusts,

and Little Secrets of French Women, Helena Frith Powell

* The Analects, Confucius

* An American Childhood, Annie Dillard

* Animal, Vegetable, Miracle, Barbara Kingsolver

Anthem, Ayn Rand

* Antigone, Sophocles

Audrey Style, Pamela Clarke Keogh

* Beloved, Toni Morrison

* The Book of Job, The Bible

* Brave New World, Aldous Huxley

The Cat’s Gallery of Western Art, Susan Herbert

Ceremony, Leslie Marmon Silko

Christ In Concrete, Pietro Di Donato

Chocolate Bar: Recipes and Entertaining Ideas for Living the Sweet Life, Matt Lewis and Alison Nelson

* Chuang Tzu, Chuang Chou

College is Yours: in 100 Words or Less, Patrick O’Connor

Cooking Without Frontiers: An International Cookbook, Meijer Pers

* In Defense of Food, Michael Pollan

* Diet for a Small Planet, Francis Moore Lappe

Gawain NG Diyos/Gods Work, Lawrence Sumulong

* Genesis, The Bible

Gilgamesh, translation by Herbert Mason

* The Great Gastby, F. Scott Fitzgerald

* Grendel, John Gardner

* Heart Of Darkness, Joseph Conrad

The House at Pooh Corner, A.A. Milne

Jane Eyre, Charlotte Bronte

* King Lear, William Shakespeare

* Le Petit Prince (in French), Antoine De Saint-Exupery

* (selections from) The Mahabharata, Ancient Sanskrit

* Medea, Euripides

My Secret: A PostSecret Book, Frank Warren

Now We Are Six, A.A. Milne

* Oedipus the King, Sophocles

Of Wolves and Men, Barry Holstun Lopez

* The Omnivore’s Delemma, Michael Pollan

One Hundred Years of Poetry for Children, (Oxford)

* Pooh Perplex: A Freshman Casebook, Frederick Crews

* Postmodern Pooh, Frederick Crews

PostSecret: Extraordinary Confessions from Ordinary Lives, Frank Warren

* (selections from) The Qur’an, Mohammed

* The Ramayana of Valmiki, Ancient Sanskrit

Romeo and Juliet, William Shakespeare

* Rosencrantz and Guildenstern Are Dead, Tom Stoppard

The Secret Language of Symbols: A Visual Key to Symbols and Their Meanings, David Fontana

The Secret Lives of Men and Women: A PostSecret Book, Frank Warren

* Siddhartha, Herman Hesse

The Tao of Pooh, Benjamin Hoff

* Tess of the d’Urbervilles, Thomas Hardy

This Side of Paradise, F. Scott Fitzgerald

When We Were Very Young, A.A. Milne

Winnie-The-Pooh, A.A. Milne

* Wuthering Heights, Emily Bronte

1000 Journals Project, Someguy

2009

I have this frozen memory of you on a bike bike bike

with a coke in hand

and a flannel on

riding over the grass

to see me maybe later

I have this frozen memory of you on a baseball diamond

with a box of cigarettes

tucked into your

tee shirt sleeve

and then we made some veggie burgers

on english muffins

I have this frozen memory of you on a bike bike bike

massaging my shoulders as we rode

how do you have such good balance

I think it was dangerous for us to be there

But you're tall

so I guess it was ok

I have this frozen memory of you on top of a hill

wait no, we were frozen

I pulled my hat over my eyes

I know it was dangerous for us to be there

but it was necessary

so I know it was okay

I have this frozen memory of you in my life

but I think that

it is possibly

a good time

for me to end this poem

and move on

WOnderful

I'll Be Fine Once I Get It

I'm so hyped on caffeine I can't control my body, completely accidental. I just took my dog for a walk and literally skipped half a block and then did a jig in my driveway. Nooot natural.

The Kid Cudi Pursuit of Happiness video is genius. Wonderful commentary on alcohol and partying, then the ending makes me sad and sick. It reminds me of my New Years.

Let Me Preach

Braids

So with exam week, my hair is perpetually in a braid, which requires no time (and no washing...)

So with exam week, my ass is perpetually online not studying, which requires lots of time (and no productivity...)

True

I Need Outside

There is a pleasure in the pathless woods, There is a rapture on the lonely shore, There is society, where none intrudes, By the deep sea, and music in its roar: I love not man the less, but Nature more, From these our interviews, in which I steal From all I may be, or have been before, To mingle with the Universe, and feel What I can ne'er express, yet cannot all conceal. Lord Byron, from Childe Harold, Canto iv, Verse 178